Money,Success,Fame,Glamour

I said GODDAMN!!!

Sun, 15 Jan 2006 03:13:44 GMT

So I have not been able to log on for like two weeks or longer because my computer is stupid. Whenever I use mozilla it says that it cant find the link to log in and then it sends me to some microsoft web site. So then I thought oh yeah everytime I logged in I used internet explorer. Of course my internet explorer short cut was gone on my desk top. I thought to myself well now I am going to have to re down load internet explorer but I cant because I do not have that authority under my computer user. RAWR so now I am back here I am

Mmmm yummy

Wed, 21 Dec 2005 05:17:09 GMT

I ate me some taters and they were yummy. I made my favorite diced red potatoes with dill, butter, garlic, and a wee bit o onion powder. I needed this because I have had a hard past few weeks at work I have been working 7 & *8 days in a row all 8.5 hour shifts. I think I will head straight for the shower next and just sit and there and let the water run down on me.bya

stick me baby!

Tue, 20 Dec 2005 04:48:46 GMT

Sooooooooo this thursday I am going in for a tattoo touch up and I might even come out with something new, really small itty bitty but new. Anyways I am going to google some images to find a basic outline /idea for my next big piece of ink. Also I really want to get my labres done but eh not sure 100% also I am trying to save money. I also have a photo shoot on thursday with pitaru before she leaves for the U.K. So wish me luck biatches!

Nighty night

Sat, 17 Dec 2005 07:00:03 GMT

Oh fuck I am tired time for bed.

Long time no see

Sun, 04 Dec 2005 06:00:04 GMT

So its been like 4 ever since I have written in my journal and this will not be a long entry either. I got my car fixed and I am currently looking for a second job as a bar tender. Also I am waiting to hear back from Suicide girls about my photo set. This winter I plan on getting back into shape loosing some weight and toning some muscle. Blah thats it in about 30 seconds!

Wowsers

Thu, 08 Sep 2005 16:30:57 GMT

Well I know I have not written in here for a long time so I have a lot to say. First off my older stuff is oh so goth staple my hand to my forehead bullshit! Now I feel a lot more confident thanks to a recent friendship with miss Naughtya. Right now I have so many other things on my mind like for one I need to cut back on my smoking and start jogging or working out so I can get back into shape. I need to start drinking a shit tun more water afterall that stuff is great for your skin. I need to nix soda from my diet I know I am not a huge junkie but still soda is baaad! I need to eat smaller portions and avoid all that fatty stuff I admit every once in awhile I eat popcorn for dinner. I dont eat a lot of sweets or choclate but I hate it when I break down and overindulge in those things. So I guess what I am saying is that this year New Years resolutions came early! I will try to keep a food diary to track what I am eating and be more concious.

busy/New Tattoos!!!

Sat, 28 May 2005 00:37:27 GMT

So I have decided that I have to much going on here on the internet and that I need to cut back. I think I will keep my LJ and I know I will keep my myspace. I like my DA so I will keep that and I continue to remain on OMP and keep my yahoo group. But I need to delete one of my three email addys and my vampirefreaks account or I will go insane! Also I dont plan on writing in my journal very often. At least I will commit to writing entries when something interesting happens to me.
New Tattoos!!!
I got one touch up and two new tats yesterday! An ankh and the eye of horus can be addad to my collection.

Making new friends

Thu, 28 Apr 2005 17:20:27 GMT

So a few weeks ago work hired some new people (four girls). Carrie who collects vintage clothing, Isabell who is still in high school, Kristen who is a teacher at Belmont h.s. , and Nadia who grew up in the area and then moved to San Francisco to go to school. So far I have really hit it off with Carrie who is adorable and Nadia who is the relaxed easy going hippy type. I was really suprised when she invited me to a Friday night gathering at her house. Her sister and I were desperately trying to understand the drinking game Asshole. I'm still kinda fuzzy on that... overall I really think the new Nadia and I could be good friends.
On another note I kinda got scared when I couldnt log into yahoo the other day. It turns out something damaged part of their data base and deleted my password. That reminds me just a few weeks ago email problems caused one of the alternative modeling groups I belong to to get deleted. I have never have trouble with my hotmail though.

Navel piercing!!!

Sat, 16 Apr 2005 06:10:09 GMT

So I am finally egyptian royalty I got my navel pierced two days ago!!! Weeeeeeee!

Weeee!

Tue, 12 Apr 2005 22:56:51 GMT

So I was just looking through all the members of the groups I belong to on yahoo and I came across a member with a link to the Ohio scene web page and low and behold I was the main picture on the heading! Hopefully in a few months I will have a large enough portfolio to start getting jobs with such companies as Gothic Beauty and Lip Service. Who knows maybe I will have made a name for myself in a year or so. Enough of a name to have cute lil teeny bopper baby bats dying to be me. Muahaha world domination will be easier than I thought. On another note I am getting pretty stoked about the upcoming shoots this summer. The weather is so beautiful outside. How could anyone be in a bad mood? Its weather like this that makes my Leo tendancies more apparent. Soon I will be laying around soaking up the suns rays.
Here is a link to the Ohio scene page for those of you who need to see it for yourselves: http://ohioscene.nrkprod.com/

I need to find a new obsession!

Mon, 11 Apr 2005 17:55:02 GMT

Wow finally I get the chance to get on the computer again. I have so much to write about and not much time but here are the basics.
Work: is still great.
School: I just got accepted into my program :)
home life: everyone is still getting along pretty well. We all work different schedules so we hardly see each other though.
modeling: I am currently working on a few projects with a nationally published photographer named Dave Levingston. We are working more on the body in nature than anything, so this is a nice change from my alternative modeling. I have also called off work to attend a shoot on June 11th sponcered by the Ohioscene. It is a free shoot still looking for models. Also I will be taking a trip to Nashville in July to shoot with the Southern Gothic Belles. I am also in the works of scheduling 2 more shoots with photographers I have not yet met. My site is going fairly well considering I really havent linked it to anything and I am not interested in making my site a popularity contest. Although I could use some more support and I would like it if members posted pictures.
other areas of interest: I finally was able to pick up the last few items of clothing from Nadia aka cereal is death. I love the straight jacket and dress! I only wish I could have befriended Nadia. I realise that when I first heard about her I let other peoples opinions influence me and so yes I admit I was mean. But now that I have met her I really wish that she could seen past all off that and gotten to know the real me.Oh well that will be a very remote possibility now considering she cancelled her membership to my group. I suppose she really does hate me.It is sad how someone so beautiful and kind can be so oblivious. She will never know how much I looked up to her, she really could have or do anything she wants with her life.

Green Beer!!!

Fri, 18 Mar 2005 07:34:56 GMT

So yesterday was Wang's b-day and he was such a sweet heart he bought me a new white cotton dress (which will go perfectly with my white and blue corset) and a blue and black tank top from Nirvana. He also bought me a new vinyl buckle top and a $70.00 dress ( black velvet). Who else would spend their b-day money on me? Then tonight we went to the foundry and I had a couple (5) of green beers and a snow shoe an amareto sour and some cherries soaked in rumple mintz. Yikes enouph for tonight I am drunk!

So its been a while...

Thu, 17 Mar 2005 00:47:42 GMT

So much to write about so little time. For starters work is great I have been working close to 40 hrs a week and everyone is still really cool. Wang and I are still going strong he just got a better job so our financial situation is looking up. We are also in the process of repainting the house our room will be a shocking blue colour and that should match our new bed quite well. The bathroom will be a shade darker than baby pink with black trim so we can cram all of my pin up stuff in there. The entrance way colour is still in debate stage, but as soon as all is done I would like to post pictures.
Other exciting news I have had such a tremendous responce from wonderfull photographers all over. I cant wait to work with many of them, who are internationally published in magazines and such. So never fear more pictures are on the way. I know it sounds silly but I have this goal to someday be on the cover of Gothic Beauty, and I think I'm off to a pretty good start. Gotta go soon, but here is an interesting fact I dragged up while researching belly dancing (I would love to take lessons), it turns out the purpose of belly dancing was to teach sex education (movements and such for the bedroom).
here's a picture taken by Dark Mannequin Designs, one of my favourites so far : )

Va va voom!!!

Mon, 14 Feb 2005 05:02:21 GMT

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Sat, 12 Feb 2005 08:35:03 GMT

So tonight was awesome it was Dj Crowes b-day and he played a Bob Marley song and Red Wine and then later in the night he played Shake Senora. It was so cool!!! imagine if you can about 100 goth people doing a train! Ha I mean it was so much fun almost like being a camp councelor again.
On another note though how can someone truly love you if they try to change the way you are? I mean what was the initial attraction? If someone trys to make you their image of perfect how happy can you be? The answer is you can't. After its all said and done all you have is yourself.Enough for now. Yall need to get your asses out and do something fun for yourself.

drunken debautchery!

Sat, 05 Feb 2005 07:52:50 GMT

I am sure I spelled thast incorrectly but did yall join my group yat? You laim asses. Why dont I have... Not sure where that sentence was headed. Yeah I'm about done. Gotts ta go to myspace and see if my g-friend to bee is on. fuck those of tou don't resd my l-journal. Later

It's a girl!!!

Thu, 03 Feb 2005 23:12:13 GMT

Here it is my new baby.

Click to join isis_eighteen

So join you motherfuckers!!!

Ignorant people

Tue, 18 Jan 2005 19:30:10 GMT

So the other day at work a customer asked me if I would buy ground beef from our store and of course I said I would, because we carry free range and 97% fat free ground beef so of course its gonna be healthier. Not to mention we sell it rather quickly so it isn't going to have time to go bad. But then her husband really pissed me off when he said "well dear you probably wouldnt want to eat any other ground beef if you knew all the crap they inject into cattle". People are so goddamned ignorant dont they realise that more than half the beef carried in grocery stores comes from free range cattle that live on gigantic ranches out west where they are rounded up once a year to mark stock. That means that the rancher/farmer is not chasing steers around everyday implanting them with female hormones which make them gain weight, nor is he treating the cattle with eye infections that could cause them to loose their sight because anti biotics cost money and take time to administer.Which lets say the farmer had money to treat them all there are drug withdrawl periods that must be observed before the animal can be butchered for human consumption. Most of the other meat products you buy at the store were raised by local 4H or FFA member, you wanna se something sad why not go to your local county fair and watch 9 year old Susie sell her market hog or calf that she bottle fed during January and February. I guarantee she is crying because she loves that animal and I guarantee that animal was not abused. The great thing is that Susie is learning valuable life long lessons (animals can be loved even when raised for the purpose of feeding the family).Now I am not saying that superfarms dont exist because they do and I do not condone over crowding or unsanitary living conditions nor animal abuse. In fact I am very opposed to the idea of mis treating any living creatures. However, Peta is my least favourite organization because they take the worst possible example and exagerate the story, they write lies on their web site and market it as the only truth example all hogs are grown in 2ft by 2ft pens where they can barely turn around and they live in their own fecal matter. Not my hog she had a 20 by 15 pen where she also had a dog bed a ball a potty corner and an atomatic waterer.
Oh hell I'm done ranting. All I want people to do is educate themselves, not all farmers are alike and not everyone neglects or abuses their animals. Those people who do need to stopped though.

So I'm a little behind

Mon, 17 Jan 2005 05:39:10 GMT

I know it has been a very long time since I have written anything. I have been really busy trying to make enough money to pay all of my bills. I also spent a lot of time debating on whether or not to enter a few of the entries I wrote over the holidays when I didnt have internet accesss. I have decided that I probably should not make these entries public because they are some what gloomy and at times angry. What can I say the holidays are not good for me. Also I was very suprised to see that cerealisdeath aka Nadia is no longer anywhere to be found on the internet. She left without leaving any contact info or even saying good bye and I doubt she gives a damn. Why do people lie about their true feelings? She swore she didnt hate me infact she was very nice and I would of loved to be her friend, but I suppose she still harbors bad feelings towards me. Well Nadia if you read this happy belated b-day I still want to buy those clothes off you and I have your x-mas and b-day gifts.
Other happenings in my life: I have some photographers who are interested in working with me. So perhaps I will have to start my own website to post my pictures on.
Interesting thing I just recently learned: buddhist monks give spirit tattoos that are meant to protect the wearer. These tattoos are often animalistic gods and are believed to be alive. While the tattoo is being given the recipient often goes into trance or is posessed by the tattoo.

Great ideas

Mon, 20 Dec 2004 21:28:47 GMT

Well last night while I was laying in bed I had all these wonderful ideas of things to write about but now I'm having a blank moment. Anyways I'm compiling a list of new years resolutions and when its complete I will post it. Also, I have a brilliant idea on what to buy Nadia and Travis for their new house I just know they'll love it even though it will be small. I'm really excited for them may all of their dreams come true, and you guys better invite me over this summer for a vegetable shish cabob grill out party in your awesome back yard! I will will be calling you when I have your x-mas gift squared away, and we gotta go to Haha's for pizza for your b-day (minus the meat).
The house is still great! This is an open invite to all my friends to come over any time you want just call ahead of time.

I cant believe its almost christmas, TIME TO PANIC!!!

Mon, 06 Dec 2004 22:59:23 GMT

So everything is wonderful in the new house. Yay we have heat, and warm water, and a full fridge. It feels so weird to come home to our house after a long day at work and just cuddle up on the couch and watch a movie. So the house is now home.
On another note I think I jumped the gun, that someone who says she doesnt hate me seems to be taunting me. I suppose she hasnt forgiven me and isnt ready to move on and give me a chance to prove myself as a friend. I guess I will just have to give up and stop caring. Obviously she doesnt care if she fucks with my feelings in fact she probably thinks I'm getting what I deserve. Oh well she has no idea what I have been through and am going through right now. I really just wanted to be friends... I hope someday she can truly be at peace, that is one thing that I aspire to attain as well. In all my life I cannot name one single person that I hate or wish ill. I simply roll with the punches and I have even forgotten all the horrible things that have been done to me, even without trying it just happened I moved on.

Oops

Thu, 02 Dec 2004 21:39:23 GMT

Just thought I would take this test for the fun of it, I didnt expect to do so damn bad. Oh well I suppose being a large percent goth(haha funny)and white trash woulnt allow me to be much else. Actually I think this thing was rigged some of those questions were so unrealistic man. I'm gonna go toke up now its already past 4:20 man.

I AM 20% HIPPIE!

What? Am I a Republican? Why did I even bother taken this test?! I guess I’ll back to my George W. Bush fan club and tell them I just wasted 10 minutes of my life. At least I don’t stink, man.

Take the HIPPIE test at Fuali.com

Eek!

Wed, 01 Dec 2004 21:42:01 GMT

I'm so excited everything is going so well! So everything is turned on at the house except water which will be on this Friday (thats ok cuz we arent actually there till friday). Also I think I might be making friends with someone after a long time of just talking and such. I think she is going to give me a chance which will be awesome she wolnt regret it! School is almost out yay! And my friend Jamie and I had the most wonderful revelation no I can't tell yall you might steal our idea but it has to do with pretty girls, the internet, cameras, and of course the foundry, and a little bit of fetish... Think long and hard on that one ladies and gents. Also I just wanted to say I am thankful that people do not look at me as a piece of ass, so far I have been respected as an artist and woman in control of her life, instead as an object of lust. So thank you to all the gentlemen out there and just know if you behave I might let you buy me a drink.

Our House in the middle of the street

Mon, 29 Nov 2004 23:59:54 GMT

So tomarrow is the day when our house closing gets done so we should have the keys in hand and be moving in at any time in the next few days. For those of you out there that are critcal of the whole house thing, Alans mommy and daddy did not give us everything in fact Alan took 20,000 dollars out of his college funds to put the down payment on the house. Also whats wrong with his parents being supportive and helping us out with some things as a gift anyways. It isnt going to be a cakewalk having a house is serious we will have many bills to pay, house payments, utilities, insurance, not to mention our own car insurance, health insurance and living expenses. Also I will be putting myself through school since my funds have run out so yeah I guess you could say I'm living in the real world. Oh well no harm done I have a few select friends that are standing by and willing to give what ever support is needed.

Happy thanksgiving!!!

Sat, 27 Nov 2004 19:05:50 GMT

So I dont have a lot of time but here is my holiday in review. My dad left my mom so thanksgiving at home this year was depressing just me mom and my little brother. But that night was wild!!! WEEEE you might ask well what did you do? I went to the Foundry night club as usualand the apokalypse girls had a dominatrix booth set up, Well I though that I would be giving not receiving but somehow I ended up on the receiving end. I was chained at one piont in the evening and even tied in japanese rope patterns.But wait it gets worse I even had a santa hat on and a raw hide dog bone in my mouth while Mistress Ebby and Jamie spanked and flogged me. Oh my poor little ass was sore!!! I was the whipping girl and for two dollars you could get three whacks. Weeeee I had so much fun and I rock!!! After all who else can you break a real riding crop over their ass and still keep bringing the whacks. Also for those of you who are invited the House is being closed on the 30th and the party is planned for the second week in December.